There is perhaps no name to my redundancy that occurs
The noises I hear are blasphemous
without an address or a paper face
I call these flutters- 'fermentations'
and 'vapourized dreams'.
I consider my half sagging bossom
perched upon life- somewhere giggling
with open mouth
I imagine toothless girl in a desert with red balloons-
an aesthetic that we can talk about.
You see- this poem is not about my illusions
but talks about the crisscross roads
even the ocean
even your eyes-
This poems sounds like a buzz- a burp or a hiccup perhaps?
Shall I call it after my sickness? Or just let it be?
As long as the juices slips through the chest the body smells of you- the colours of enchanted wrist, thawing thigh upon the quivering night. We, the inked words of soil breaths What callous strangeness is this that you speak of? I know nothing- just the land of marigolds blooming underneath my vagina- a homeland to all the poets, to all the musings and lanterns of dreams. you- the late tide of the monsoon- is this not a reality? This damp sheet. This mosaic floor tiles- Are we not really here? ---------------------------- Crimson Skins- MY book
POV- I imagined living in the Victorian Era and had a feeling to write a poem. Hence this came out.
The neighbourhood is a wet puddle. Across the streets, I see the women having a camp-fire whispering soft murmurs about the mundanity of life, into the blue hemishphere where stays a large apple- tree. The women of my town are a faint pear- with whitest bosom and whitest eyes. Look, the hourglass shapes have moved now- torn between the edges of languages, one is cutting the rind of a lemon while the other makes a lemonade. They banter vicariously and live through the sky. rust on their elbow, as if a second skin to their thighs. The women shaped as exhibitionist gulping down a massive portion of tranquil shines: They can't see. They can't hear perhaps. They have done the job when the dark falls, one word at a time- one woman to another. The women are too fast to remember anything the next day.
The wound is where the hurt has lived and been nurtured. How do we plan to discard it now? Are we enough to understand the fragility of emotions- certainly we are. We are the sinners and the bearers of its entrop, of its magnanimous callous injury. We swallow pain each day and night. I wonder what does it become once it injects our bloodstream. Does it pinch and ache further? Or does it swirl in the air- like a thick cloud of a giant's saliva.The air must be lukewarm. With softer lotions of time for time must tear the air inside the chest. The heaviness must inflate further. Invisible sewing machines. The most intriguing part of human is perhaps his fear and love- imagination in paper. We perhaps always come back to aberrance. To ambuguity of life and people. We come back, eventually to nights with fallen jasmine on floors.
Often it happens that I am reminded by WordPress to blog here and then I realize do I still have readers here lurking through my mundane words? I know, I too need to catch up on so many lovely writers here that I have known since I started writing here and I definitely will. But…
I am grateful to announce that I have a poem up on Outlook India- the most prestigious magazine that I have read and enjoyed growing up. Here is the link to my poem- Outlook India.
If you are still interested in reading the poetry book that I published during the pandemic here is the link.
Available on Kindle as well.
Your clear eye is one such beauty haunting for days - this body that dwells on it your each visison- birds perching on my balconies and not disturbing my burnt pancakes. I see. I annihilate. I wash face. I know what my grave shall be called - with one tree and all about 'waiting for Godot' This world may heal sometimes soon with it's funny pink sins it's funny politics and gender of skies. I must not speak thereafter,the tingles of auburn dirt that fills my nostrils are too many, symmetrical and ferocious. The closed drawers in my room chatters all about my loneliness and nothing still infects me. You- the one who sparks lucent moon into my breaths. I say this this too. the notions of morality and absurdism tickling cellophene above our eyelids.
Language. Who needs it? It’s nothing but a scattered pretty way of illusionary numbers. Romancing with minds and tongues. Shifting bones of vertigo sky. Across my white bare body and this vibrating fall—language stops existing suddenly. Linguistics is nothing but a way the syntax of my paper heart breathes. Water condensed, without any stabilizer. I understand I must stay happy as I have been asked. I must walk.
I must love and I must sleep. I understand I must chew my food a thousand times before it punches my gut to vomit a disappearing fever. But friend, life is more than this- more than survival, existence, wounds- more than interpretations. More than the yeast of existing . Swelled up library inside the eyes. We can not win anymore nor can we lose- it’s the language that laughs all throughout life- hiding underneath the shades of glory. It’s the language of abyss between the voids. To be or not to be. To celebrate or to loathe.
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The opposite of hurt is not healing, rather- a distinctive synonym of becoming a vague object. Poached skin tones with multiple tars jammed on a tongue. A small shiver inside the handprint- the bruises not always becoming a temple- bell. They require a screenplay and observance of a sponge. Hurt is parallel to grief. Screeching veins spreads throughout the bedsheet and the bedsheet always remain jarring. We collect and put it all in a single bowl and wait for the doctor to arrive along with a pill and stethoscope. Does it help? Does it defy your existence? Your sorrow? Hope- a lament which people talk about is nothing but a soft matchstick burning from either end. Where does voice become visible? Flesh- so vulnerable yet covered in darkest colour. We want it to glow and glow hence we speak of lives, mundanity, love, and kindness but our body is nothing but a parenthesis or storage that covers everything missed upon.
Sustenance. Life. breaths. But how do we collect it? How often our communication deliver us that symphony? Intimacy, thoughts and bonds.. how often do we count on it? Where is hope? Is it a bird still flaping it's wing while sitting? Do we walk with torches lit under the ocean? Or we do not swim completely- for the safe side. The mind is a mess of discarded old vintage thoughts. For a moment- we can disguise our minds with a great shield of book- a wise thick book, but ultimately it will fell down- and then there is thin chiselled sad face- forever, striving hard each day to replenish about the old bliss. The bliss of nostalgia. Of not knowing abundant vague discrepancies of life.I utter in parts. I bleed in parts. Trotting each day about wounds and swallowing the gutter of life.
This is what we crave. Collective mirth and fragments of life. Even the water seeks shelter, trees look for companions- we the social animals, what else do we require if not intimacy and love? The ripples of the sky amidst the dark cauldrons-but it indeed shines abruptly. Partially crooked with foam in a fist and mud in another. The roads are man. Who walks onto them but? I see these oddities almost everyday. My sentiments leaking from my either cheeks and merging into the clavicle. The shoulder often freezes to think of strong bond- numbness followed. How do people structure it perhaps? A two level- multi-faceted hoax. I hold pittiness in one fist and air in another and think of animals and their supremacy in a few sense. But as an artist, we see light and observe darkness almost in everything- so why this void? A barren shape, contour, a detached light- these small elements not falling into right place. I consider my mouth as an window instead of a door-It wanders abruptly-looking for attachments and dreams. Dust and salt. All things small and sweet. Blisters and stomach. Spit and skin. Yet, I fail to strive this opague density of life.
What amazes me is the notion of sadness bringing us all human together. If we think deeply about it- we might find an insatiable quench to sit and share this massive grief. Instead, we circulate remarks about literature, art, and human minds walking downwards. Where do we then carry forward this collective sadness and grief? Do we spit and spat or do we think of it as a life lesson forever? There has to be an end. An end to this corollary of distinctive yet massive grief. This sadness which human collects and wear in disguise. We do take help from art, literature, but is that it? Is there more? Space- times. There is anticipation. Black redundancy of slipping emotions. Where are we that we are not able to hold them? Shall we sit on this grief? Shall we change the verb here? What should be done with this collective sadness dear friend? Is it ugly? Is it beautiful? Is it the first- born? Stringing wound floating inside the mind.
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I might have trembled a bit with my words before but there is no dimension to art. We create what abstract images look like in our thin membranes of mind. Some say it is- art- a way of living. I am unsure what it should be named. There is eternal power when we feel satisfied doing something- a thing that delivers solace and creates an abstruse anomaly of questions. A stack of melting rainbows. We need to catch all the colors and hold them in our palms to define the dimensions of life as we continue living this vivid, weird phase of life. Not every heart will remain the same- so dear artists- whatever side of the story you have- it should produce distinctive behavioral and mentalist satisfaction to create and to quench your own truth. There is no truth but you.
Listen up here, amidst the greenfield. raindrops dancing. onto our toes. Heavy atmosphere. Seagulls atop our fingenails. Wait, watch the sky. Wait. Here, count the sky. seraphic susurrous sighs. Sustenance climb the stairs Sliding climb the sky reverberate Anthropocene Pronounce Platonic. Renaissance. Do not flutter now. Wait for me. Let's elope together into the void into the madness.
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Bare skins electromagnetic cheeks- ripples through air, soil, air all one- all one mouth of untamed fizz. untamed vestibule---- singular space and singular loneliness. your skin is a fine example of my night time lullaby, crescent fall leaf's song, onto my nude lip. one by one- as I call your name, I sing a choir and stand in the experimental splash of colours. I think of your mundane time, solid blue eye- shared collectiveness. shared solitude. Night- my sodden muse. Outside the window, I think of your sniff of your favourite sun touched hand, this space, a white pool of madness, this is the geometry we stich together, air in hurdled spaces.
I hear a quiet shout, screeching under my eyes- How long do I float, anonymously? to declare is what I want- space and time stars and grass, look at my one hand, the one that stares you- curvatures of my body= lotus. Lotus that spews water from its body again and again. Call it life. Give it a name- Air, will you be a space to my existence? Water- will you sing songs to my graveyard? Fire, burn along. Do not resist anything further. This day inhales "me" in the most blasphemous way. I do it through a circular band on forehead. I soak everything like a sponge. Watering lilies and eating oatmeal. Please be mine- You, the ferocious 'eye'. Apply a cold balm all through my body- know my persistence of time and know what I mean. ----------------- To read my book- Crimson Skins- India Crimson Skins- US
the body is a loose powder longing through the rooms, vacant mountains of chills. bare chest- a throbbing slitting moan. the moon kisses and watches over linguistics of a body. decoding cacophony of amorphous substance. unwrapping a flower- the body is dream, you must say. it slips and sticks to the wall- a whorl of pink tongue. I sit and produce words during the daytime as I watch over my window for a twig to be stuck to my throat- instead I have maroon dreams and floral nights - sore limbs now, sore words- I shift to a different paradigm, I shift to lotus from rose. The arrangement of bones has a purpose now.