Insanity clicks

aww. too cute. Mother & Daughter.

Ambivalent my throat shouts your name, mama
to see you breathing and breathing more
and the circle of killings and abusing entices again.
I heard my dad straddling and maintaining whisky
Burned Pale Chipped
You had it all mama, you had the walnut voluble mouth
speaking iterative hollows of time and its bent motion

You had the emporium of statues and movements.
Life existed in your eyes, and I saw it sincerely
with a callow foot, you walked and created squares
I cursed the moment, life played you
I cursed the moment father abused you
Unruffled Oblique Esurient

Mother, I faded myself to colour your skin
burying myself each day to provide you faint candlelight
Behind the shadows of blasphemous engine sounds
I knitted pillows and dreams
This moment is insane now I might lose myself
mama, hold on… I will knit my skin once again
to catch your life and slumber of peace.

Hold on, mama.

©MVS


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59 thoughts on “Insanity clicks

  1. Couldn’t help reading in between the lines, D! There is so much these lines hold that I’m literally shuddering and I’m not even going to the fluidity and impeccability of your words. Maybe for the first time, I’m so caught up in the sentiment here than the expression thereof. I can just say this blew my heart and not just my mind.

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    1. So I am glad if I was able to get you that highly. I know you get this and that makes me satisfied because understanding such crucial emotions is vital and I know you do that with poise each time you read me.

      Thank you so much lovely.❤️

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  2. This is touching,you expressed the helplessness of a child and at the same time you showed how she lied her mother.And how she want to hold her mamas breath,” fading to colour your skin” children are innocent and yet pure..she is offering her life to mom..how pure her love is…I don’t want to go into the poetic review for this..just feelings are enough for me to enjoy or may be to feel the love of child towards mom

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  3. This is hard to read. My mom went through a similar difficult time, and is physically weak now, and it messed me up. I watched my father almost kill her when I was five, and I doubt I’ll ever recover, which is one of the real reasons I just want to be alone or even give up. But what you’re going through is far more excruciating and painful. It’s far more difficult. This broke my heart and made me want to be a better person. Thank you sis, and I really mean it. The wealth of emotion in this piece just blew me away.

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    1. I cannot even begin to imagine the atrocities of time that played you while you were so young, Nitin.
      I know you must be strong enough to come this far now!

      There are so many things which I am feeling right now maybe hallucinating only but I know it’s not that bad here, I can manage myself still. I have to.

      Thank you for sharing your touching experience with me. It makes me aware and so much brave.

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  4. This is painful & amazing on wordcraft & feels more like a storytelling touching every string of the heart although the beauty of mother’s sacrifice, will & love stays always beyond the words however this is masterpieces of emotions.
    Keep writing!☺

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  5. Dreams are someplace we can have anything we want and if it’s something as serene as a mother, that dream or even the reality is just a plain, simple symphony. Calms your heart and your mind. At the same time…..

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  6. Devika, this piece is tragic. It speaks to me and my own childhood. Our mother’s pain is our pain. We are one. I know you feel the same way. There is nothing as heart-wrenching as witnessing someone hurt the woman we both idolize and adore. I hope you stay strong, love! Strength and love out-powers abuse of any kind…

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    1. I understand that you feel this and equally I am sorry for your pain Rulla.
      I am wise now taking her care in a deeper sense and yes so true it hurts a lot. But you know, the fear of loosing someone as precious as her is more tragic.

      I will put strong, dear one.
      Thank you for your concern and support.

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      1. We all have pain. I tend to forget that sometimes. We judge a book by it’s cover, forgetting that we all have skeletons in the closet. I feel closer to you, as we have both experienced this agony. Like you said, at least we have our mothers to hold and to cherish and to love. There is always a silver lining in every cloud, they say. Thank you for your profound words and for touching my heart, as always Devika!

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      2. We all have pain. I tend to forget that sometimes. We judge a book by it’s cover, forgetting that we all have skeletons in the closet. I feel closer to you, as we have both experienced this agony. Like you said, at least we have our mothers to hold and to cherish and to love. There is always a silver lining in every cloud, they say. Thank you for your profound words and for touching my heart, as always Devika!

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  7. My heart is so heavy right now, that I can barely hold my tears. This has touched my heart, my soul and if there’s anything beyond that, that too. I just don’t want to say you’re brilliant today, I want to hug you so I can touch the depth with which you have penned this wonderful piece of poetry, D.

    Much love!
    ❤️❤️❤️

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